Lying in the Sun

A Little Surprised

A Little Surprised


May 2009

Madeleine Was Here

Kate McCann:

I did my check about 10 O’clock and went in through the sliding patio doors and I just stood actually and I thought - oh all quiet.  And to be honest I might have been tempted to turn round then but I noticed the the door the bedroom door where the three children were sleeping was open much further than we’d left it.   I went to close it to about here and then as I got to here, it suddenly slammed and then as I opened it, it was then that I just thought I’ll just look at the children, and I could see Sean and Amelie in THE COT and then I was looking at Madeleine’s bed which was here, and it was dark and I was thinking – ‘is that the bedding?’  And I couldn’t  quite make her out and it sounds really stupid now but at the time I was thinking I didn’t want to put the light on as I didn’t want to wake them. And as I went back in the curtains of the bedroom which were drawn, they were closed - whoosh - it was like a gust of wind just kinda blew them open, and cuddle cat was still there and her pink blanket was still there.


I mean I knew straight away…that she’d erm been taken yah know…



Tubridy Interview 2011


Kate McCann:

Well I went in through the patio doors and I just stood in the sitting area and it was all quiet.  And then I just looked over towards the bedroom door and it was open much further than we’d left it because we usually just  have it quite closed over just so enough light gets in, and at that point I thought ‘Has Matt left if open when he’s checked on them?’  So I thought I’ll pull the door back over again, and just as I was pulling it to, it just slammed like a draught had caught it.

So I turned behind me and checked that it wasn’t the patio doors that I had left them open which I hadn’t, so I went back to open the door again so that it was open just a little bit. And as I opened it that’s when I looked into the room and it was really dark but I couldn’t quite make Madeleine out and I was looking at the pillow and thinking is that her head is it not and then I realised actually oh she’s not there and so I thought I wonder if she’d gone through to our bedroom and that would explain why the door was open a bit more.

So I went through to our bedroom and she wasn’t there, and that, that is the first point really when the panic just hit and I went straight back through to their bedroom and just as I did there was another gust of wind and the curtains which were drawn just kind of flew out and flew open and then I saw that the shutters were all the way up and the window was pushed right across.  And I just knew, I just knew!   And I just erm  I ran to the window and I’ve no idea what I thought I was gonna  find, but I  ran to the window and then  I just whizzed round the house, the flat for 10 or 15 seconds, and again I just knew she’d been taken.  But I l just thought just in case she is cowering in a cupboard  or something and then I  just flew out of the back of the apartment and ran to the table and I was just screaming Madeleine is gone, someone has taken her.



Oprah Winfrey Interviews McCanns  2009


Kate: I went at ten and I went into the apartment and there was no crying I stopped and there was no crying. And then I just noticed that the door was quite open.


Oprah: Which door?


Kate: Their bedroom door sorry, and we usually have the door as Gerry said sort of not closed but ajar just so that a little bit of light gets in and it's not too dark in the room so I thought oh Matt must have gone in and left the door open.


Oprah: same thing he thought.


Kate: Yeah, so I thought well I'll just close it over again, and as I went to close it over it slammed shut and I thought and it was like sort of you know a draught had caused it to shut so I turned behind me and I thought are the patio doors open and they were closed and I thought well that's strange so then I opened the door thinking I'll open it ajar a bit again and that was when I kind of looked into the room and when I just looked and it was quite dark and I was just looking and looking at Madeleine's bed and I was thinking is that her that I was looking for why isn't Madeleine there?


And then in the end I walked over and thought oh, she's not in bed and then I thought maybe she's wandered through to our bed and that's why the door's open so I went through to our bedroom and she wasn't there and then I kind of see then I'm starting to panic a bit and I ran back into their room and literally as I went back into their room the curtains that were drawn over just "foooosh" flew open and that's when I saw that the shutter was right up and the window was pushed right open.  And that was when I just knew that erm someone had taken her. So I, I mean I ran to the window and I didn't know what I thought was going to see but I ran to the window and then I quickly hmm quickly looked through the wardrobes I had I suppose this temporary thought she was cowering in a wardrobe or something anyway she wasn't there and I just ran out and soon as...


Oprah: was she in a closet, in a closet?


Kate: Yeah just in case, just in case she's hiding or something I don't know and then I just went flying out the back door and erm ran to Gerry and just as soon as I saw the table where they were sitting I just started shouting "someone's taken her, Madeleine's gone" you know and erm that's how it all started really but erm [hyperventilates]


Oprah: Why did you feel immediately, I'd heard that you'd said  "They've taken her, they've taken her"


Kate: nnnn....I didn't say that I said, said "somebody's taken her Madeleine's gone". Well from the way I found the room it was obvious because a child could not open those shutters and the window.


Oprah: uh huh.


Kate: erm so it was obvious to me.





Madeleine by Kate McCann

Kate McCann:

At 10pm I went to the apartment myself.  I entered the sitting room via the patio doors, as Gerry and Matt had done, and stood there listening for a few seconds.  All was silent.  Then I noticed the door to the children’s bedroom was open quite wide, not how we had left it.   At first I assumed that Matt must have moved it.  I walked over and gently began to pull it to.  Suddenly it slammed shut, as if caught by a draught.


A little surprised I turned to see if I’d left the patio doors open and let in the breeze. 

Retracing my steps, I confirmed that I hadn’t. 

Returning to the children’s room
, I opened the door a little, and as I did so I glanced over at Madeleine’s bed.  I couldn’t quite make her out in the dark.  I remember looking at it and looking at it for what was probably only a few seconds, though it felt like much longer.  It seems so daft now, but I didn’t switch on the light straight away.   Force of habit I suppose, taking care not to wake to avoid waking the children at all costs.


When I realised Madeleine wasn’t actually there I went through to our bedroom to see if she’d gone into our bed.  That would explain the open door.


On the discovery of another empty bed, the first wave of panic hit me.  As I ran back into the children’s room, the closed curtains flew up in a gust of wind.


My heart lurched, as I saw now, that behind them, the window was wide open, and the shutters on the outside raised all the way up.  Nausea, terror, disbelief, fear.  Icy fear.  Dear God. no!  Please, no!


On Madeleine’s bed, the top right-hand corners of the covers were still turned over, forming a triangle.  Cuddle Cat and her pink princess blanket were lying where they’d been when we’d kissed her goodnight.  I dashed over to the second bed, on the other side of the travel cots, where the twins slept on, oblivious, and looked out through the window.  I’ve no idea what I expected to see there.


Refusing to acknowledge what I already knew, and perhaps automatically going into a well-practised medical emergency mode, I quickly scoured the apartment to exclude all other possibilities, mentally ticking boxes that I knew, deep down, were already ticked.  


I checked the wardrobe in the children’s room.  I ran into the kitchen, throwing open all the cupboard doors, into our bedroom, searching wardrobes, in and out of the bathroom, all within about 15 seconds, before hurtling out through the patio doors down towards Gerry and our friends.  As soon as our table was in sight, I started screaming.  ‘Madeleine’s gone!  Someone’s taken her!’   Everyone seemed frozen for a split second, perhaps unable, as I’d been, to process this information.   Then they all jumped up from their chairs and ran towards me.  I remember Gerry saying, ‘She must be there!’  By now I was hysterical.  ‘She’s not!   She’s gone!’




After reading the various accounts by Kate McCann, I am not even a little surprised that Dr Amaral once said that Kate McCann’s book – ‘Madeleine’ may at some point become a piece of evidence!


Should this case ever see the inside of a Court, then absolutely the book will be used in evidence – Kate McCann will if that day comes, regret she ever put pen to paper, if she doesn’t already do so!


It was clearly written, the aim being to cover all bases, to cover all of the errors and inconsistencies in their stories, but unfortunately she made one lousy job of it!


And I’ll bet Matthew Oldfield regrets ever having agreed to say he was in that apartment – perhaps the biggest mistake of the guy’s life!


But, let’s look at Kate’s ever changing story about her ‘check’ of the children and that patio door!   The door that always comes back to haunt them!


We have Kate McCann, in some of her accounts stating she simply looked over her shoulder  to check if she’d left that patio door open, which would have accounted for, if open, the bedroom door slamming closed, according to Kate of course.   And it was a very cold and windy night, according to Kate McCann as per the account in her book.


Were the curtains which draped these patio doors open when she turned around to look?   If closed she would not know if the patio door was open/closed, unless of course she was relying on a gust of wind or a breeze blowing them at the very same moment she turned to look.   Just as the wind seemed to have done, picked up, each time she went close to the children’s bedroom.


The account she gives in her book though is very different from her other accounts– In the book, she Retraces her steps so as to confirm if that patio door was open or closed?


Yes it is getting close to pantomime season – Did Kate simply look over her shoulder to check the position of the patio door, or did she retrace her steps?


Did she even enter by that patio door?


Oh yes she did…Oh no she didn’t!


She had only just entered the apartment, she must surely have known whether she had left it open or closed, it was routine according to the McCanns (well in some of their versions it was routine!) to step inside and just listen.


And interestingly, not in any of her accounts after establishing that the patio door was CLOSED, did she then give consideration as to how else the bedroom door blew closed -  if the patio door is closed, then the gust of wind which caused the bedroom door to slam shut obviously came from within the bedroom…  Funny that, because if she had thought about it, how the door slammed then she would have given thought not only as to whether the patio door was left open - she would then have checked the window – She didn’t! 


She went off to her own bedroom before returning to another gust of wind which this time blew the curtains open.

Which makes me wonder – That FIRST gust of wind, the one that made the bedroom door slam shut so hard, despite Kate McCann holding that door handle, and being in the process, of closing it over at the time, she could not prevent it from slamming shut.   That must have been some gust to do that.

Yet that FIRST evidently strong gust, strong enough to blow that DOOR SHUT– didn’t manage to blow the CURTAINS OPEN?

It took for a SECOND gust of wind to make the curtains go whoosh!

And the other thing that niggles me about this cold windy night that Kate McCann describes in her book – if that bedroom window and shutter had been lying open on such a night – then she would have felt the cold in that apartment, particularly so in the bedroom, the temperature must have dropped somewhat from when they had left the children.   And those little children lying in the cold, surely the wind howling through would wake them, the noise of that bedroom door slamming closed would wake them?

And if it was such a windy night – we would be fools to think that the wind blew through the apartment  ONLY AFTER KATE ARRIVED ON THE SCENE!

It would be fair argument to say that on such a cold and windy night that the curtains would most likely have been blown open before she arrived, that the bedroom door may have been blown closed before she arrived.


Unless we are to think the ‘wind’ was waiting for its cue before whipping up a storm – the arrival of Kate McCann?


And her twin children, if these children had been lying in this cold bedroom, she would have been able to easily establish for how long by simply touching their skin, their little faces.


Hard to believe these people were medical professionals when we listen to their stories.  The obvious things seem to have escaped them.


And to believe that Fiona Payne and Kate McCann both qualified anaesthetists didn’t manage to establish if the twins were sedated – quite astonishing!


She mentions the darkness in the room too.   They left a light on in the living area, and the bedroom door where the children slept open they said to allow enough light in for the children.  Yet we have Kate telling us it was so very dark in the room?

When she entered that room, the light from the sitting area would have flooded the room giving more light than when the door was only a little ajar.  And when the door was a little ajar she claimed it was enough light for the children!

Doesn’t make sense!

She mentions also in one of her accounts – the cot – singular, not cots!

Were the twins sleeping together in one cot?

And what is all this about the top right hand corner of the child’s bedclothes still being turned down?  If she had tucked the child into bed that night then quite likely more than the top right hand corner of the bedclothes would have been turned down!   To say they were ‘still’ turned down – what is she implying?


She speaks too of not switching the bedroom light on straight away.  At what point did she decide to switch it on?  Surely the moment she had difficulty figuring out if she was looking at Madeleine or the bedclothes, that light would have been switched on?


In her ‘account’ given to Oprah Winfrey, she speaks of going over to Madeleine’s bed when she is unable to distinguish whether she is seeing Madeleine in the darkness or only the bedclothes?

Might have been a good time to switch the light on!


She stated - ‘In the end I walked over’


So not from her position in the doorway was she able to determine whether she was looking at Madeleine or bedclothes!


She states also she looked in the wardrobes in the kids room in case Madeleine was cowering there.   Would she have had to move the cots to do so, at least one of them?


Were these cots then not positioned side by side in the middle of the floor a gap between them - as we see in the pictures - when the police arrived, one of them up against the wardrobe?


Madeleine’s bed too, in the pictures I have viewed it doesn’t look so neat as has been made out in some of the accounts.  Perhaps it was neat when Kate arrived and then it was messed up a little later, for whatever reason by whomever.  In the pictures it certainly looks just the way it would if a little child had been there, and gotten out of bed.  There is no neat triangle in the bedclothes as Kate McCann describes.

Perhaps the pictures I have viewed were taken after changes in the apartment?



Many have argued as to whether the McCanns, Kate in particular would be able to remain calm so to speak knowing her child had been harmed – and indeed if the child was abducted as her mother said she knew immediately was the case, then the child had most certainly come to harm.

‘Madeleine’ provided the answer:


“Refusing to acknowledge what I already knew, and perhaps automatically going into a well-practised medical emergency mode, I quickly scoured the apartment to exclude all other possibilities, mentally ticking boxes that I knew, deep down, were already ticked.


I’m left wondering why they bothered to contact the Portuguese Police at all – Kate had it all under control – All boxes ticked!   She had,  in her 15 seconds in the apartment, excluded all possibilities other than abduction, scoured the apartment and positively established the nature of the crime!


I’m left wondering also - This well- practised medical emergency mode –don’t they generally require a patient, an injured party, a body to practise on?

I'll be more than a little surprised if they don't!


Could be wrong but in my neck of the woods, any time I have had cause to visit the Emergency Room, the docs didn’t start looking under the beds and scouring the cupboards before attending to the injured party, before attending to patient!


And odd this emergency mode she automatically assumed – whilst it appears to have been thorough in respect of cupboard checking – double checks of the bathroom, the twins seem to have been overlooked… 

But let's be serious, and apply Kate's emergency mode to the situation she found herself - abduction of a child, her child!

Now Gerry McCann once said that as doctors they have it drummed into them that the first thing they should do in an emergency is call for help.

Kate McCann could have called for help from the verandah - screamed her lungs out from the verandah and someone in a neighbouring apartment or someone on the street, someone in the tapas bar would have heard her...

Kate McCann - 

I just ran out, I knew I could be there in seconds, and I just screamed when I saw the table.

Sandra Felgueiras:

Now when you look back you realise it could have been dangerous for Sean and Amelie to leave them behind?

Gerry McCann:

I don't think that's right and certainly in medical training the first thing you get taught in an emergency situation is to call for help. Thats part of...that gets drummed into you

SF:    So its a doctors reaction?

Gerry McCann:

"No err it's one of the things that should be considered for us, but I think most people would react like that."

This was three years after Madeleine vanished and still the McCanns don't accept responsibility for any of their actions.   Still they want to include others 'most people' as he says this time around would do as Kate did.   Just as he told us in the early days, 'most people' would leave their children in the way he, Kate and their buddies did!  Another 'back garden' moment!

I think most people would have stayed with their twin children and screamed at the top of their voice for help. 

But if they are taught to call for help - Why then did Kate McCann not do exactly that - call, shout, scream for help, but from a location, the verandah for instance where she would still be able to protect her two other children?

Forget 'medical mode', whatever happened to mother mode?

I do wonder when 'the mother' in Kate McCann kicks in?   I would like to have thought that it would have on this night, that she would have thought first of her twin children, and called from the verandah!

We are to believe Madeleine was taken in seconds - What made it any different for the twins - they too could have been taken in the time it took Kate McCann to run to the tapas bar and then return with the others in their holiday group.

But if, as Gerry McCann said, and as Kate McCann herself has said, she was in medical emergency mode - It is safe to say that the McCanns and their companions could in such situations as abduction, a child being injured, a child needing resuscitated, even if it was their own child, they would not panic, that they could indeed, carry out whatever was required of them depending on the situation, that they could easily slip into medical emergency mode!

Is this not what Kate McCann did, put aside the safety of her twin children while she got into the mode which was going to get her through whatever it was she needed to get through?

Is that what happened with Madeleine- they were able to apply themselves, whilst in 'well-practised emergency mode' to deal with whatever was the situation they found - an injured child, a missing child?

It is as possible, as anything else is in this tragic story.

And for anyone who has time to listen the link to this conversation, McCanns with Sandra Felgueiras on video at 0.57 seconds Kate McCann said:

'and that's when I noticed that Madeleine was there'

Where exactly did she notice Madeleine to be?
26th November 2013

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